Thursday, 29 May 2014

CAPTIVITY

PREFACE
In the poem captivity I try to compare and align the first feeling in every rosy relationship especially erotic relations to that of being imprisoned. I try to use contrasting symbols and allusions to represent the illusions of relationships. “imprisoned” as connotatively used doesn’t only refer to a physical confinement but also refers to the mental, emotional and psychological restrictions and limitations that we sometimes consciously or unconsciously  subscribe to. We often do not notice these limitations until time reveals them to us, then we begin to appreciate life in the reverse order.


DEDICATIONS 
I dedicate this poem to all who have at one point of their lives found themselves so madly in relationships that made them feel as though nothing better could ever happen to them. This is to those who by virtue of their being in relationships felt there couldn’t be a substitute to what they had and that there couldn’t be an option. I dedicate this to all those who will find themselves in relationships and lose the consciousness of the reality around them.I dedicate this to all my ‘lover’ boys and my ‘loved’ girls. This is specially made for you, Akanlisi Donatus; a brother from another mother, a fashion freak and a very supportive friend from whom I learnt a lot during my High school days.You inspired this work unconsciously and I am grateful.



CAPTIVITY

For no reason I found myself in “prison”
To serve an indefinite sentence for no criminal reason
And treated as though I committed a high treason
But that supposedly was rather a romantic season
My accomplices, history says Adam is a pioneer
and the story of Romeo and Juliet, a souvenir

I recorded in a page
all the sweet pains and torments under the “bondage”
I opted and sought to be a native
but rather I was made a captive
Did not suffer insomnia yet had sleepless nights
and there, I was deprived of my personal rights
My libido was as well robbed and monopolized 

Not until the “prison broke lose,
all its stinking odour remained fragrance,
its leaking roof I considered showers of blessing.
In its deplorable state, I felt in paradise,
its fallacies I took for factual facts.
Not until diminishing marginal utility set in,
I had no sense of my own to admire
There was nothing more my heart could desire
Could it then be a crime to love?
Why must I then be caged like a dove,
if it so fortunately happens?


pdwedam 2010.

Tuesday, 2 April 2013

WHY I WON'T LIKE TO BE A LADY


IT’S BURDENSOME TO BE LADY
            Before I got to know the numerous challenges females face by virtue of their sex status, I had always wished to be a female, dreamt of being a female and did everything just like a girl. Though my physical morphology was obvious I was not, I posed as one but my name usually betrayed me.I’m sure if it were today, I would be branded a gay for those traits I exhibited at the time of my desperation. I simply loved the way they’re honored, the privilege of being called and invited by the opposite sex and the discretionary powers they have, either  to give in to a proposal or not. The adoration and idolization accorded them in such “political” seasons made me feel discriminated, thus envious. Political because the opposite sex who admires a lady and wants her will definitely behave like a politician who desires a position. Approaching the lady, be it by calling her or inviting her over to a place in all its aspects is like organizing a “rally” where you get her attention to tell her your plan of action or read your manifesto (what you will do when you’re given the nod).Then after, she will use her discretion just like a Ghanaian voter would on 7 December in an election year. I must confess that, the closest I ever come to such honors and privileges is always situational, either a lady has lost her way or a lady classmate wants some sort of academic assistance .Even in such instances, it turns to be the opposite because I treat them as though I wanted their service. The least said of girl child education, the best to sooth my jealousy .In fact, dying and coming back a lady was all I prayed for.
            As I came closer and closer to more and more ladies, my desire began to depreciate becoming fainter and fainter. It all began when I discovered that as a lady you suffer from what I call “chronic or acute hemorrhage”; a frequent spill of blood through their “exit”. I had learnt this way back but I didn’t really understand it because at the time education to me was merely “chew”,” pour”, pass and forget. I encountered it in its practical phase in church when a lady appearing like an angel, dressed in an overall fitting white dress had her “river” spill unceremoniously. “Why could not God spare her some 30 minutes to get out of church before the test of her womanhood?” I wondered. Then I realized it is within the package of “femalehood”
           Since then, my desire to be a female vanished faster than I had nursed it. Then I subjected the whole structure of a woman to some sort of scrutiny, and then I realized that being a lady is not as rosy as I thought. Indeed the geography, the curves, the contours and the entire body scape of woman is quiet enticing but problematic. Sometimes I feel too uncomfortable with the way I have to carry the various parts of my body but thinking of a woman and the extra parts and sometimes heavier parts she has to carry, I source some solace. Extra parts mean extra time in the bathroom to reach all angles and corners. Extra and heavier parts mean extra cost to keep these in good shape. The feeling of carrying all this without any direct pay is bad, it is worse when ladies held in cramped places or caught in stuffy places like traffic-held’ tro-tros’ or poorly ventilated places. In such places, the males seize the golden opportunity to poke fun suggesting that it is better to be a boy, they open the top buttons of their shirts in order to let fresh air in before the eyes of these ladies who carry extra flesh strapped to their chest in bras.
          As light as hair may be, it has some amount of weight and has the propensity to cause serious discomfort especially when it’s not your natural hair. I don’t know about you but I would either have nightmares or insomnia if I happen to put on a deceased’s hair like weave-on or wig. However, as a woman you have to come to terms with all of these.
                  Contrary to my previously held perception about  the rosy nature of womanhood, I have resolved that I want to be a man for life and when I die I will like to come back as a man over and over again.Infact it is very burdensome and expensive to be a lady. That is why I chose to come a man.There is a lot more hell of life that women go through in their quest to live their everyday lives as ladies. This is just a tip of an iceberg and I will surely be back on the same topic but mind you I have no mind of disrespect. My name is Mr.P.D Wedam and this is my mind.


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Tuesday, 13 November 2012

GIJ,WHAT EXACTLY DO WE PAY FOR?


GIJ, WHAT EXACTLY DO WE PAY FOR?
                              My dear colleague students, may I have 3 minutes of your precious revision week time to draw your attention to a pertinent issue.  How do you feel when you give out your money without knowing what you are paying for? How do you assess the value of that huge or scanty amount you pay for fees? Well, I feel cheated and insulted for always giving my hard-earned money to GIJ without the benefit of knowing exactly what I purchase and at what price.
               Yes, I do recall that when I received my admission letter from the University of Ghana, there was nothing hidden as regards the information I needed to feel at home. Every bit of information about social life, academic work and finance was readily made available. Everything was plain and bare, you may call it transparent. However, what is of interest to us and triggers this write-up lies in the last italized sentence on page 9 of the university of Ghana manual on registration and orientation for freshmen; it reads “NOTE: Detailed Fee Schedules are available on the university’s website www.ug.edu.gh . There I got to know how much I was paying for   what service or facility. Is this too much a task for GIJ?
                       I remember I caught a glimpse of a friend’s admission letter to Kwame Nkrumah University of Science and Technology and every pesewa of his fees was explicitly stated.  I still have fresh memories of the right I enjoyed knowing about my school fees way back in Notre Dame Seminary Senior High School, even the 1.20 pesewas the government paid as my feeding grant .Surprisingly, when Ghana Institute of Journalism offered me an admission, I was still looking forward to receiving a second letter which will indicate the composition of the fees. To my utter shock these were already made computations that only God and the school administration can tell us what and what they added, multiplied, subtracted or perhaps divided to get such absolute figures. May be it is because we appear so comfortable about it and no one questions why. Before, I thought the act was typical of those institutions they called professional institutions but when I chanced on my elder brother’s  Institute of Professional Studies(IPS) admission letter I was convinced that it is the uniqueness of GIJ.
           Forgive me if I bore you with my personal profile but it will actually serve as a pivot around which the write-up will revolve and also expose to what happens in other tertiary institutions. Let me reiterate that the underlying factor of this piece does not hinge on whether or not the fees are exorbitant, for that is relative depending on the individual and the economic time. Neither does it border on embezzlement or corruption but it is basically transparency driven, accountability motivated and assessment oriented
              For the purposes of assessment, not only can we assess the performance of the school, but also the performances of institutions and groups within the school. For instance the current SRC has on its list of achievements that, it has succeeded in negotiating for the reduction of fees for continuing regular students. For the SRC to argue in that light without the breakdown of fees will only bring to bear a fallacy or at best a very very weak argument. It will be sheer naivety and gullibility on our part to be carried away by the typographical display of the numbers; we should as well consider what the numbers stand for and read them “metaphysically” and logically. The fact that continuing regular students now pay less than they paid last year in itself doesn’t guarantee a reduction. Of course we now pay for fewer services from GIJ than we did last year; we no longer pay for ID cards, we won’t pay for matriculation and some things I do not know. Under normal circumstances, if the cost of these things really reflect in the fees then obviously continuing students especially level 200 students, whether regular students or fee-paying  should pay less than last year. Well, there may be truth in the SRC’s self-assessment but unfortunately it is hidden in the failure of administration to make known the composition of school fees.SRC can vindicate itself if it takes on this issue on behalf of the student body to show us where exactly the “reduction” affected.
        Fellow students, imagine one day you are asked to pay some amount of money at library before having access to its material or you are asked to pay before using the lavatory at the time you are very “pressed” or you board the school shuttle and all of a sudden you hear someone say “yesss! Front” or after a lecture the lecturer demands to levy all the students for his tuition, in each case what will be your reaction? What will be your defense remarks? What will you use to substantiate your stance? You will realize that whatever you say in each case will only be based on assumptions and not evidence. We need to have strong backing in such situations like it happened in the university of Ghana last year around this same time; first semester, when the continuing students noticed an increment in their fees.Refering to the detailed schedule of their fees, they realized that they were made to pay for an exam meant for only level 100 students, so they detected it and protested. Considering the current system of GIJ If such things happen, I can guarantee that it will only be by magic or some sort of divine intervention that we identify them. Why can’t we also have the right to know what we pay for and how much we pay for it?
           Fellow students, I am glad to have brought to your notice something you probably overlooked or perhaps did not know how to initiate an action to that effect but that should not incite you or elicit an irrationally action. Take it easy! Give it a sober reflection and if the need be, act and act responsibly. Have you ever imagined how much seriousness you will attach to your lectures if you learn that you pay so much for tuition? Of course it can change our apathy towards things we pay huge sums yet do not patronize them. I do not think we will be accused of any crime if we prudently challenge what appears to be a status quo. Obviously not, because I know the rector, the vice rector or any member of the administrative body of GIJ will certainly challenge his or her bank if they receive a pay slip that indicates only their monthly salary without recourse for deductions, allowances and arrears. In as much as they will like to have an explicit computation and display of the salary, they should do well to do likewise for us in accordance with the biblical text which states “do unto others what you want done unto you”
Ladies and gentlemen of this noble institution, may I leave you with this; it’s the little things that matter. If we cannot stand up and fix these little little things, then any intention to fix the big ones will be a pipe dream. Yes we can!!To my dear SRC executives, the onus is yours, IF ONLY YOU HAVE FOUGHT THE FIGHT AND WON IT, THEN BRING HOME THE TITLE LET US ALL SEE IT and this lies in the composition of GIJ school fees. My name is P D Wedam and this is my mind. MAY SUCCESS BE YOUR PORTION IN THE EXAM.GOOLUCK                                                         

Wednesday, 17 October 2012

STORMING VOLTA PARADISE TURNED HELL


STORMING VOLTA PARADISE TURNED INTO HELL
         Comrades!! I bring you greetings from the “Volta paradise”, specifically the “angelic” guest house, "cocoloko" beach resort. For those of us whose attention and interest were arrested by the glamorous appearance of the ticket and banner that advertised the trip, we had to simply part with 25gh cedis as that was the fare to the “paradise”. Painful though it was to Part Company with such an amount, I personally thought it was worth the expedition, since it could be a life time experience. The package, as indicated on the tickets and banner actually matched the “subsidized” price. “Thanks to SRC for their ideas and their sense of generosity” were my last words before I let go the 25 red notes. In return I took my ticket to “paradise”. Comrades, whatever followed, it is with a heavy heart I recount it.I wish I could stop but no matter how piercing it may be it must be told once it ever happened. In that light, I still muster courage to recall the gruesome story with confidence and with the intention to mince no word so kindly bear with me if you fall prey to my submission. 
                                     Hopes, expectations and excitements were very high, so all that which later transpired in the trip came as an utter shock. Perhaps we could have read in between the sensational caption to realize that it was indeed a paradise in the reverse order. A paradise of congestion and suffocation, a paradise of starvation, a paradise of inequity and iniquity, a paradise of disappointment and the list continues. In fact it was real hell. Something that was slated to set off at exactly 6:30 eventually began at about 9:30, communicators indeed! That act of lateness in itself was a fateful sign and a prelude to a total mess up. We overlooked that probably because it is the second image of blacks. Going aboard the buses was an issue of physical fitness. It took strength to make ones way in to the bus and endurance to remain in it for the one hour used in “parking” everybody aboard. I stood in the bus sweating as though I had just been rescued from a cooking pot. Under such a condition the transmission of some communicable diseases was endorsed. As I stood there carrying my small bag of two balls and my thing, I prayed to God to spare the males from low sperm count as the heat was enough to induced it.I even prayed harder for my dear ladies who carried masses of flesh strapped to their chests in brassieres, it was weird to imagine how they coped with that particular disgusting environment. The bus was literally filled beyond capacity causing some of us to either hang like bats on trees or perch like birds. Questions began to run through my mind; didn’t SRC know the capacities of the buses? Could it be that the buses descended from heaven on that day for us to use? Why then were the tickets numbered? Or was it just a calculated attempt to molest and torture students. We sometimes need to stop playing the fool and face reality, these are buses that have been with us for as long as the organizers have been in GIJ and here were they pretending as if they were shocked by the congested outcome of the buses. Maybe they thought the buses were elastic or the students were elves. For about two hours, we had been in these stuffy and congested buses, a group of self-appointed students in one of the buses, called the “Jama” group, found a way of making the ugly situation look handsome by singing out their hearts. They could not arouse me anyway because it was at that very moment I had the sensation that everything had gone out of hand and we needed to either brace ourselves for the consequences or go to hell. Surely others did too but there was no need crying over spilt milk. We had gone far, too far to resign.
                        Two hours after noon, we were at the “cocoloko” beach resort; our host home, after we had made a stopover at the Ada district police station to report our presence and for a word of caution. Another mystery was just about to unravel as one would wonder how the over 250 students were able to go into less than 30 rooms; some of which were air-conditioned. Don’t ask me if the rooms were that spacious to accommodate as many as ten. Whether spacious or cramped, some rooms actually accommodated as many as 15 students. Hard to imagine right? Well, it happened in our Volta “paradise” They were actually a bit bigger than cubicles. You may choose to call them shacks. By the package of the trip, some indeed had air-conditioned accommodation and some of us too had much more than that; we actually had air-conditioned cum mosquito-conditioned accommodation. Had it not being the timely intervention of a roommate, mosquitoes would have literally devoured some of us or perhaps lifted us to sea.
                         As if that was not enough a maltreatment, one could not be certain when to get a meal, where to get it and what to get for a meal. One had to starve patiently and politely for long hours only to be given “fante kenkey” and stew for lunch, soaked rice and stew for supper or boiled yam drenched in water with wicked pepper for brunch .For the fish and eggs that were served with these meals, it was a matter of fortune that one got either. The mode of distribution was so poor and porous that some people did not get either food or drink or both from SRC.
                   The painful and disappointing thing about the whole trip is how students as rational consumers in market gave their money hoping to get its equivalent value in terms of delivery from the SRC which woefully  delivered far below the belt. Each student who gave his or her money expected a comfortable transportation, air condition accommodation, night party at “cocoloco” beach, in-studio discussion at radio Ada, food, drinks, a ride on lower volta,yazz products and any other thing that could sum up to an unforgettable trip. What became of the studio discussion, the ferry ride and the yazz products is yet to be officially known. More painful was how callous these SRC executives were to these situations. At least courtesy demands that as a leader you explain to your followers whenever you fail to meet a target and try to soothe them with some words. This is not academic, it’s purely lore. SRC why? Most painfully is how blatant these executives tried to shriek blame and try to present the whole show as if it were uncalled for. Some prospective SRC executives also tried to exonerate them. God have mercy!!! If prospective SRC executives also try to cover up and justify these actions then I can guarantee a bleak immediate future SRC.That notwithstanding, some of them also condemned the act completely.
               Of course every cloud they say has a silver lining, our trip bears no exception to this. Beyond all the odds and setbacks there was still fun. We created it, we forged it on our own, and we caved it out of the odds. We went beaching on Saturday afternoon and played beach soccer, went for supper and continue with a night party which featured the musician klala.You can imagine boys and girls under one roof over a night, it was real fun. The climax was a stopover at the Volta estuary where a few students swam. The period of fun was basically characterized by swimming, seashore games, photography, socialization and drinking but was short-lived as Sunday afternoon suddenly approach for departure. Following the sequence of events, an article that could possibly be written to suite the theme of the trip: “unlock your creative writing skills as we project tourism in Ada”, would be more tragic than comic. In effect the designers of this trip simply want to explore our sense of tragic creativity; how well we can write tragedies.one thing I now pray for is that the final bit of the trip package be fulfilled, the mobile phone.
                  Before I take leave of you, let me say that I do not intend to give a narrative of what transpired, I leave that to those writing for the mobile phone but I only bring you pieces and slides of the entire tragic trip so that you can tailor them together to make a complete whole. In this regard, may I veer off the normal to express my candid opinion that SRC has disappointed us, it has deceived us, it has “messed up” and I’ll dare to say SRC is a failure. Once again, pardon me if I sound derogatory but this is how far I can go to sound polite. My name is P.D Wedam and this is my mind.

                                                                                            

Tuesday, 9 October 2012

PWABERI DENIS WEDAM:  SOLACE FROM THE VOICES WE MOURNTAKE HEART, GHANA;...

PWABERI DENIS WEDAM:  SOLACE FROM THE VOICES WE MOURNTAKE HEART, GHANA;...:  SOLACE FROM THE VOICES WE MOURN TAKE HEART, GHANA; By Pwaberi Denis Wedam Why mourn? I’m now a guest Though you feel I’m no more I’ve found...

Saturday, 11 August 2012

 SOLACE FROM THE VOICES WE MOURN
TAKE HEART; By Pwaberi Denis Wedam
Why mourn?
I’m now a guest
Though you feel I’m no more
I’ve found eternal rest

At last I’m home
More serene than Vatican of Rome
But how do I relay my story?
The one of success and victory
And the triumph in the battle
To those who’re still in the struggle

Wipe away your streamy tears
And bear no gloomy fears
Brace yourselves and continue race
Because I’m great on this gleeful journey
To a land of flourishing honey
Begrudge not death
For by his innate duty to kill,
He runs errands without any bills
When I was called to duty
I could not say  no though I loved you,
I still do but He loves me more